What do I want in life?
Something I’ve been thinking about a LOT lately, is what exactly I want in life. Well, that’s a tough question because no matter how much I try to explain it to anyone else, it seems like they Just. Never. Get it.
So, I’m going to try to write it out on paper… well… actually I wouldn’t count this as paper but still… and see what happens. Let’s begin.
I want to start by saying, the further I get in life, the more I believe that my brain doesn’t work the same as everyone else. So many people are stuck in the 9-5 and they’re okay with that. Heck, they LIVE for that. But that’s not what I want. What I want is to LIVE. To have a life worth talking about. To live with passion, and adventure, and excitement. This may seem naive, or cliche to some people, and that’s okay! But that is where I see myself in life.
Do you remember your childhood? The wonder in every new situation. The excitement in new relationships, or crushes, or even that first job you ever had! The adventures you went on because really, nothing was holding you back! Every step you took was a learning experience. Every time you fell down, you got back up. As long as you were provided for, you were safe, happy and healthy. And while yes, I know there is a lot of negativity in the world and this isn’t every single persons reality. But there’s a twinkle that you see in every Childs eye. An excitement and a happiness. The negativity of the world hasn’t weighed down on them yet, and everything they do is new. I want to live a life where that is the reality. Where you cover your essentials and allow yourself the ability to breathe in, and explore. It appears that once we hit a certain age we forget that feeling entirely. I know I’ve noticed it.
I don’t require the same specific things that most people do to live the life I envision. Objects are really irrelevant as long as you’re able to cover the essentials. And on that note, yes, I am very lucky in the experiences I’ve had and the position I’ve placed myself in. I’ve had to go through a lot of darkness to get myself to where I am today. But the important thing is, not to let the darkness take over. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and sometimes, you also have the opportunity to be that ray of light for someone else.
Do I have a significant other? No. I am divorced and have been single ever since. And again, the older I’m getting the more commonly I’m seeing single adults. And that’s completely okay! You can be entirely happy, on your own without another person in your life. The longer that I’m single, the harder it is for me to see myself in any sort of relationship. Maybe that just isn’t in the cards for me, or maybe one day someone will surprise me. But either way, I’m okay. Having another person to do life with isn’t a requirement in the life I want to live. If I do find someone that fits well into the life I’m building, I hope they’re ready to live a life of uncertainty, adventure, and passion! That’s the only way they’ll manage to sneak their way in!
Do I have a job? I mean, that really depends on how you look at it. Technically no, but technically yes. I am what is considered to be “self-employed” and I like it that way. You have freedom that you can’t get with a regular job! You have opportunity you’ll never see in any other situation. These are things that are important to me.
Where to I see myself in 5? 10 years? WELL, I hope I’m still living life in the same way, but bigger. The money itself isn’t particularly what I’m worried about. What I’m interested in is having something to show for what I’m doing. I want to start a company with a cause! Give back to this world that is doing so many amazing things for me. I want to have other projects I’m constantly working on because I know for a fact that I easily get bored. And I have been blessed with an entrepreneurial mind that doesn’t SHUT UP! I want to be travelling a ton, and exploring the world and seeing what there is to see! And where there’s a will, there is definitely a way!
I would have to say.. In a nutshell what I am looking for is a life of childish wonder. Maybe Peter Pan really was onto something…
Anyways, these are the random 1am thoughts that have come out when I try to articulate what exactly it is I want in life. I’m going to stop this before I drone on too much! If you have made it this far, I really appreciate you reading, and please feel free to let me know what you think and whether or not I should keep blogging! BUT before you say anything, I apologize in advance as I am not any sort of professional writer so I really do hope this wasn’t a crazy difficult read!
Other than that, stay Young, Wild and Free!
XOXO
Alanna